Floaty McBloaty

65 F temp. 51 F water temp.

Today at the lake it was gloriously warm and sunny. I got to swim with L, who I have not seen in almost a year! 

There were tons of black ducks in the swim area and a few tots on the beach with their parents. I love how they can squat down and focus on the rocks for sooo long. Plus, their little sun hats are adorbs. 

The water was glassy and a bit murky. Green. Hazy green. I felt like lead again, but pushed myself to swim to and from the cement dock. I made myself stop to float on my back a few times. Wow. In a wetsuit I’m buoyant, so floating on my back is amazing. I can let go completely. 

When I float I have to keep my eyes open because I could easily fall asleep. Because my natural state is unrelenting fatigue. I looked up at the clouds and thought that one of them looked like like an eyeball….except it was all line-y like the colored part of the eye but white. 

Sunbeam Meditation

I saw the light beam kaleidoscope, and swam into it. I was chanting to myself a few names of my loved ones who have transited. “T, A, R, SC, SP, grandma.” I swam into the center of the beam, repeating my chant in my head. Then I did something I’ve never done before; I reached into the beams while I chanted. I wasn’t sure where the beams were since water distorts things, but I was really surprised that I could put my gloves into the beams. Like literally touching the souls I love. 

So I swam perpendicular to the beams so I could put my hands in them as I swam. I got a bit trippy about it….lost in it…before I finally pulled up and swam to the dock. 

My swim buddy was swimming and floating and generally just loving the water, too. We looked at each other and said, “yeaaaa” and raised our hands in the air. 

I forgot one thing…on the way there my radio worked! I think it was T visiting me again. It has been a long time since he got in touch. And the song this time, “Take the Money and Run.” Nothing like a little Steve Miller Band on my drive to the lake. Dis him if you must, but his greatest hits, along with Fleetwood Mac greatest hits, was the soundtrack of the best roadtrip of my life, back in ’89. 

A Few Complaints

Also, I really don’t like the fuzzy, furry icky stuff that clings to the rocks. It’s gross. I wish they would put in a sand beach because 1) I want prettier nature 2) the rocks are slippery and it makes getting in and out of the lake really challenging, 3) who doesn’t want a sand beach.

Really struggled once I got out of the water because I was really dizzy and still feeling leaden. I have a weird condition that makes my heart rate go cray when I am vertical. I have to sit or possibly faint. It’s tricky. This is on top of three other chronic diseases. It’s really been bothering me lately. Trying to stay hydrated, but something is really off with it lately. Swimming is good because no gravity and horizontal. But it is really wiping me out. #$%&@

Note to self to make an appointment with doctor. Something isn’t right. I have felt like lead for a couple weeks now. It is my usual stuff or something new? Feel like I weight 700 pounds, every movement is a struggle. 

Got home and was invited to the neighbors to drink tea and sit on the porch. Our first Tea Society gathering! Our third member walked by with her dog. She will attend next time. And we have a fourth member around the corner. 

Spring!!!!

Thank you, and I love you, lake. “Truly, madly, deeply.”